another stage

in a very happy mood these day, haha...
n found out lei wei googled my name... haha... n found out sth juicy... woohoo...

ok, i hv watched "up" recently, not the entire one, but, parts by parts.. is about the promise of this old man to his wife 70 years ago. he pulled his hse along throughout the whole journey.. den de end, he let the hse go.. juz like letting the burden go.. this is wat i am feeling now... haha... how cum??? god knows..

but, toking bout "up"... the relationship between them is so sweet.. so devotional... so.. touching.. until my tears cum out.. so weird, easily touched by similar true n strong relationship recently... haha, partially admire n partially jealous.. haha..

well. recently so much things had happened.. i was dreadfully emo, until i think i hv gained sum wrinkles... but, i think i hv succesfully gone thru it... like i'm at the other stage now... haha... burden gone.. but.. purse bleeding... extra spending.. T.T summor today went out to eat wif ah wei, Vv n mun hin.. very long nvr eat lunch after school... summor ate at Bliss... last time i used to go there a lot.. with sum1.. haha... reminiscing, i cant belif so much has happened... yet, everything went back to zero now.. but, i belif after all these, i hv undergone sum sort of self develoment n improvement... haha.... well, at least i kno how to judge myself beta, n hopefully i can judge others beta next time....

hehe... all the best to myself maintaining this extremely gud mood!!!

travellin soldier by Dixie Chicks

"Travelin' Soldier"

Two days past eighteen
He was waiting for the bus in his army green
Sat down in a booth in a cafe there
Gave his order to a girl with a bow in her hair
He's a little shy so she gives him a smile
And he said would you mind sittin' down for a while
And talking to me,
I'm feeling a little low
She said I'm off in an hour and I know where we can go

So they went down and they sat on the pier
He said I bet you got a boyfriend but I don't care
I got no one to send a letter to
Would you mind if I sent one back here to you

Chorus: I cried
Never gonna hold the hand of another guy
Too young for him they told her
Waitin' for the love of a travelin' soldier
Our love will never end
Waitin' for the soldier to come back again
Never more to be alone when the letter said
A soldier's coming home

So the letters came from an army camp
In California then Vietnam
And he told her of his heart
It might be love and all of the things he was so scared of
He said when it's getting kinda rough over here
I think of that day sittin' down at the pier
And I close my eyes and see your pretty smile
Don't worry but I won't be able to write for awhile

[Chorus]

One Friday night at a football game
The Lord's Prayer said and the Anthem sang
A man said folks would you bow your heads
For a list of local Vietnam dead
Crying all alone under the stands
Was a piccolo player in the marching band
And one name read but nobody really cared
But a pretty little girl with a bow in her hair

[Chorus x2]

emo day

i shudnt be on9 at this hour.. supposed to be studying, working hard... but, i muz release.. well, sth happened today, or nth at all... i feel like i 'm waiting for sth... which myself oso dunno wat... like sudden lonesome has engulfed me... or wat i always say, void in the sole.. it started off as usual, happy day... until... i oso not sure... mood swing.. n den, tears came out from my eyes.. has been happening quite often lately..

lately i hv decided, to becum doctor, i dunno whether i can make it anot, but this is my ambition for now. i hv nvr been so determined and confirmed b4.. when shu xian was asking me, if u cant be doctor... i said i would dunno wat else to do in my life... n den, i heard sum stories from my mom, bout sum1 just passed away.. so, sumhow this add onto my emoness.. den, i was watching the seiries, very sad n sentimental scene... extra emo

jus now i read ah wei's blog. she said" i will feel lonely, not becos i am wandering alone at else where, but the tot of no one is waiting for me back at home.." this feeling is so empty, so void, like loss of hope in life.. like this song "travelling soldier" by Dixie Chicks. very soothing music, but the lyrics, is a story bout a girl, waiting for a a soldier to cum back home. they juz met once, in a bar, while the man is waiting for the truck to take him into the army camp to come. den, he told this girl he just met:"i bet u hv a boyfren, but i dun care, i need sum1 to send a letter to.." in a way, he has no one waiting for his return, n he needed sum kind of emotional clutch... however, he didnt make it home. when his name was read at a memorial, nobody cares, except for a young lady, hiding in a corner, crying...

cute poem

i got this from a newspaper, in chinese, although is very simple, i find it very cute

the title is sth like this = wo xi huan ni xi huan wo, hao zi zai( i really dunno how to translate this)

i like to read, u like to talk
fortunately, u're not like any other childish girls
continuously asking me whether i like u or books more
or when r u going to finish reading
when can we talk

u kno i dislike noise so u always stay quiet doing your own thing
sumtimes, you will tok to our cat
reminding me soothingly of ur existence

besides reading
i enjoy the accompany of a quiet person
although u always have a lot of things to say
so much passion to give
but you understand me n learn to hold

i hv many likes' and dislikes'
of cos, u 2
your patience taught me
to like sum1
is to feel so natural when we're together

the more i kno, the more i dun undastan

There is this perso, whom i kno for quite sum time already, n i feel tat he had becum more n more like a stranger to me, as i kno him more..

At first impression,
very humble, easy going
friendly
helpful
funny
and nice to be with

now, the impression
does not has own stand, changes with the flow
will not reject anyone that approaches, i mean anyone at all
always like to cross borders, care 2 much bout all the things tat are non-related to ownself at all
say things without thinking, n r always irresponsible of wat he had said or promised
jus like to flirt around, to anyone at all.. (i dun really kno wat is purpose of doing this,probably its fun doing so by giving the misleading signal)

those qualities that are good at first, becum the bad ones... very funny huh?? but, its very real... i dun kno, whether this fren of mine has changed, or is just like tat from the start.. juz tat i din kno well at first..

i oso feel very wasted, as most of us agreed that this fren is very nice in the beginning... no one know things will turn out this way, n a person that looked so mature, turn out to be a childish kid that doesnt understand the meaning responsibilities.. its really a waste, becos i must admit, anyone that gets to kno this person at the beginning,will like to hv this fren... sth i call "ren yuan hao". seriously, this is not sth u can earn, it comes from birth i belif, becos sum ppl when u look at them, immediately, u like them, but others not.. however, without good personality, of cos ppl will still dislike u after knowing u... jus tat, u hv won others' liking at the start.. bonus!! haha...

even until now, sum of my frens still find it hard to blif that the true personalities of this fren of ours are like tat, well, becos of the superbly good impression given.sigh